Chapter 1

So.  I've thought about doing this for a while.  I used to blog a little on My Space but have deleted that.  I would blog about the things I was struggling with, my broken heart, my despair, my uncertainty, and my stupidity.  But I deleted my blogs when I deleted that part of my life.  If it were only that easy, to delete parts of your life or yourself that you don't like.

But here I am again.  I'm starting a new chapter in my life.  But this first chapter is about getting in touch with who I was and who I am.  Why do I need to do this? Because I got married and it was much harder changing my name than I thought it was going to be.  Maybe that's because my husband is in the army.  And he's good.  He's a good soldier, a good officer.  Someone you really want next to you in battle.  I'm afraid I'm going to melt into the background and just be seen as his wife.  An army wife.  I am not defined by my husband's career.  I am more than that.  And that's where we start - who am I?

I was born in Manhattan, KS, and lived there until my family moved me to Texas when I was 2 years old.  I grew up in Irving, TX.  Started attending church when I was in the 6th grade and solidified what I already knew - that God was bigger and better and more supreme than I could ever dream of in my minuscule imagination.  I started to try to live the way I think Christians live and I was a hypocrite.  I went through some really bad stuff (which I am sure we will discuss sometime) but I came out stronger for it.  I went off to college where my faith was challenged and grown tremendously.  I worked at a Christian summer camp for the privileged of the South and came to realize - I have to help people.  I have always needed to help people but I didn't know it.  So I changed my major to the only classes I truly enjoyed at my Southern Baptist University - Religion.  And I LOVED it.  But you can't do anything with religion without more of an education and so by the time I graduated, I had made the decision to get my masters in Christian Counseling.  However, I was going to have pay for it and I needed a break.  So I decided to take about a year off and start again.  In that year, my world was flipped upside down when I met the man who I am recently married to.  We dated and were engaged for 3 years, always separated in different cities, states, and even countries (one deployment mind you) with weekend visits to solidify our best definitions of love. 

And that's where I am today: married, Ft. Benning, GA, not working (yet) and about to start my first three courses of my masters.  And this blog is my story of my studies, marriage, travels, experiences, everything I guess I want to say but afraid to really bother anyone - besides who's going to take time out of their schedule to read my blog - besides my mom and husband.  But still I will write about it...as I should have been doing all along.

My purpose for this blog - To remember who I am as I grow into my new life.